i'm better with a pen, he doesn't think so.

it's it amazing.
how things go from fucking terrible.
to fucking amazing.
Bristol is the most fun ever.
He makes me smile like no mans business.
but i often wonder if she's going to be mad at me.
i truely hope she's not.
i feel like i took my dad's advice for once.
do what makes me happy.
and i've never smiled so much.
i forget about all my shitty exs.
the way i was treated.
my mum.
my troubles.
and just smile.
is there even a need for those pills?
a week ago today,
i was a car crash.
totally.
i was ready to give up.
i went home and cried to my mum.
and now i feel so far away from that.
i hope this works.
i really do.
i want it badly.
i do think about him.
i dont want to hurt him the way he hurt me.
i'm not like that. at all.
we can still hang.
i just don't wana break anyones heart.
the way mine was trashed.
he passed me some band aids.
and we're on our way to the future.
it's moving so fast.
but i love it.
i've never felt so alive.
i love you.
this is life.
this is amazing.