baby love called again...

and this time he didnt hang up.
i know i say this about all of them.
and i know i get this excited.
but this, this is different.
in the back of my mind i know im going to get let down.
but i wont let that come to the front.
i dont wana cry.
i dont wana be sad.
i wana smile.
the way you make me smile.
i wana laugh.
the way you make me laugh.
i wana fall head over heels in love and not get hurt.
i want you to make me feel that way.
i want you to mend my broken heart.
and pass me the band aids ever time a crack appears.
i wana catch this moment in a perfect picture.
i want you in the bathroom.
even though your a gentleman and charming.
god, you make my tummys do flips.
dont let me down.
please.
ive been through too much for this one to be a fuck up too.
and i know what im like.
get attached too quick.
but im hoping your the same.
i just want to be in love.
(and i just called you on accident.
sorry.)
in other news.
i hate uni.
someone give me a job now please.
will write for food/money/clothes/roofoverherhead.
back to todays current story...
Maeheadoverheelsforsomeguyoffmyspace<3
but its so strange.
your not the type i go for.
never.
but its nice.
ive also been thinking about my mum a lot recently.
shes on her first lot of like injection chemo.
shes had the tablet ones already.
it worries me.
shes been real ill.
and i dont seem to understand it.
only that its the big C.
which is just a stupid thing to call it if you ask me.
do you think hapiness comes at a price?
because i'm not even sure i want to pay it.
if it does.
i'm hoping it doesnt.
Then theres you.
what do i say to you.
the heartbreaker.
the exloveofmylife.
part of me wishes that it had never ended up this way.
because i still think about you.
just not the way you think about me.
dont hate me yea?
i dont wana pay the price.
why does life have to be this way.
at all.