not good

tonights not been good.
i've felt super down.
Doctors tomorrow tho to sort it out.
asda at 1am or bed at 1am that is the question.
im fresh out of things to write.
sweet dreams.

so close, yet so far

back to where i started.
its like a nasty circle.
and i cant jump out of it, no matter how hard i try.
he always lets me down, messes me around.
hurts me.
i dont deserve this, espically not now.
i need someone to take care of me, to love me, to have fun with.
Not to continue to stamp on my heart just a little bit more.
someone needs to wipe the tears.
why cant you understand.
why cant anyone.
i get so mad and so angry.
nothing helps.
i wish you could give me that cuddle i want to give you.
we're so far away.