its really out there

it's taken me a very long time.
but i'm happy.
i am actually happy.
i really smile.
not a fake smile.
a real smile.
i smile with my eyes.
my heart.
i smile and i feel it inside of me.
i cry now because i'm happy.
not because i'm sad.
because im happy.
i never thought this would ever happen to me.
i never saw it coming
and i wasnt looking for it.
making plans for the future excites me.
we have our ups and downs.
but thats us.
i love you.
i love you so much it tingles.
i love you so much it makes me grin.
i love you.
and i dont know how else to show you.
this is the real deal.
your the one ive been waiting for.
this is what i was fighting for.
finally.
life is good.