when you need space

i'm feeling very lost at the moment.
like i'm sort of wandering around.
with no aim or goal.
I don't know what I should be doing or where or I should be going.
I'm feeling pretty sad
Might just take off again.

I want to do bad things with you...

'Love is just a lyric in a childrens rhyme'

'He never contemplated bumping into you,
how's your mother now and what have you been up to?
Just to see you sets him off,
a chance encounter with someone he loved so dearly.'

'I've often heard it said, "you can't be friends once you've been to bed,"
Just to see you sets me off.
A chance encouncter with someone I loved so dearly'

A free ride on a guilt trip...

Just writing, you know?

First blog of 2012.
And when will people stop saying 'Happy New Year'!?
Maybe when they start to say 'Happy Birthday' or 'Merry Christmas' again.

I really don't want to recap 2011 in any sort of way, shape or form.
I just want to look to 2012 as a new start.
But to be honest the last 14 days have been a little...well not as expected shall we say.

But let's leave every little technicality behind and just write.
I still love to write.

The latest idea I had for a book was kinda brutal but I think i'll just write it anyway.

Coldplay - Christmas Lights

We'd spent hours walking up and down the South Bank.
Laughing, smiling and pretending we where having fun.
Where we really just pretending?
The night we drank tequila.
The night I ruined it all.
Life goes on.
But every moment we spent together won't ever be forgotten.
Watching Glastonbury and singing our hearts out whilst drinking Mexican beers in an empty pub.
I'm willing to allow the happiness gloss over the bad times.
I'll still take it all with me.

Kids In Glass Houses - Lovely Bones

Do you remember the night you sang this?
To me?
Remember?
I swear it was me you where searching for in the crowd.
Singing as if every line was written for me.
Being so head strong, wanting all of the world to be mine.

Kelly Clarkson - Since You'd Been Gone

'He only dated you because you where the hottest girl at the time'
How could you even try and reply to that?
William, it was really nothing.
I fell for that boy, hook, line and sinker.
He was posh.
He was indie.
He was innocent.
He didn't even like blow jobs, or just oral sex for that matter, giving or taking.
I'd certainly never heard of it.
I wore sexy lingerie, i mean it was hot, white and red, frills and cherries.
You would.
I invested in Ann Summers secret weapon, Pleasure Gel.
And yet nothing.
He turned round and told me he'd not been into me for months, which was strange because our relationship only lasted a grand total for four months.