Rest in Peace Dana

i would have said this to you face to face.
but im so rubbish with saying things.
i'm so much more better with writing them.
i dont know why i want to give you this.
or let you read it.
but i just do.
something tells me i should.
i found your side project on myspace.
it touched me in so many ways.
and i cried for like two hours.
i could relate to it.
i almost lost my mum to cancer, she went into hospital the day after my 18th birthday.
and finally went into remission just over a year later.
it broke our family up
and tested me more than i ever thought possible.
when there was no-one there for me.
music saved me.
music held my hand.
and music wiped my tears.
i couldnt imagine my life without her.
shes my guidance and my rock.
but at least i would have had the chance to say goodbye.
i feel so lucky that shes still with me, and i do always hug her that bit more.
and tell her how much i love her everyday.
but i know the time will come when she won't be with me anymore.
and i'll have to deal with it.
but what also touched me about the promise of redemption.
is it reminded me of when my long term relationship of three years ended.
i know what it feels like to love someone so much that your heart could burst.
and for them to be all you can think about from morning to night.
then to have them taken away from you.
even though he's still around, things have changed.
and will never be the same as they where.
i know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out and stamped on.
it makes me feel so sad to think that could happen to you.
apart from she's not around anymore.
and you'll have to wait a little bit longer to see her again.
i know ive only met you twice.
but already your one of the nicest people ever.
your musics really inspired me.
your kind, genuine and funny.
Shane, you and Dana are forever in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you for continuing to write music and make such an impact on the world.