Always Allways.

so i havnt been around for a while
for a number of reasons
one being i couldnt be arsed with the internet
another being i dont want to remember the past week or so
and ive been busy with real life.
but that doesnt mean i havnt been writing
ive been writing in my head
which makes me think a lot
i went for the best drive the other night
i should have been scared
but i wasnt
i went upto rivi
drove across the top
like where my dad used to take me
and then to my fav fav fav place ever
to watch all the lights and the world pass me by
it was so peaceful and beautiful
it really puts things into perspective for me.
ive spent a lot of time thinking lately
where did it all go wrong
the infidelity
the lies
the heartache
and the pain
because since then it hasnt seemed to get much better for me
maybe until now
i wont rant and rave
it doesnt feel that way
it feels different from ever before
its funny how opposites attract
and maybe this is where ive been going wrong all these times
maybe i need this boy
whos daft enough to call up and ask if id like some chocolate
someone whos texts me to tell me he misses me
and he really really likes me
maybe
just maybe
i need someone whos different to me
someone who doesnt know who fall out boy are, but understands my pete obessions.
someone who doesnt bum the internet, or even knows how to use it.
someone who couldnt really give two shits about what nme think, or anyone else for that matter.
someone who thinks that hellogoodbye song is pretty good, but wonders why there called hellogoodbye.
someone who will listen to me, and tell me the truth no matter what.
someone who will teach me how to cook, or try.
someone who tells me im beautiful everyday, even in the morning.
someone who brings a smile to my face, and a laugh to my lips.
someone whos great with kids, and would be an amazing dad.
someone whos going somewhere, and wants to take me with him.
someone who wants to be loved, and fall in love.
someone who really cant spell, or is good with words.
someone no-one would think is romantic, but really is.
someone who i wouldnt have thought i would be with in a million years, but somehow ended up with him.
its my time to be happy.
its my time to shine.x