i'm sorry

I don't think i've been the best girlfriend since i've got back from America.
infact i'd say i've been take. take. take.
which isn't like me.
I'm sorry.
i don't think i'm dealing very well with being back.
i'm so happy to be back and with you.
being with you is all i ever want to do.
it's just the weather.
work.
the way of life here.
i need to shake this feeling.
because i need you to know that it's not you that's causing me to feel like this.
i adore you.
you're the light, the warmth, the love that keeps me going.
i need to get positive and think about all the wonderful things that happen in winter.
i suppose it doesn't help that i can't stand Christmas.
what are you going to do with me?
i love you.x