and today was a day, just like any other

in a world of plenty
we can never have what we want
are we honest
do we fight for our rights
or do we slump into the background
and end up with what we never really wanted
but have it because its less hassle
i had a little girl last night
Lilian Mae Chivers.
she was so beautiful.
bright blue eyes and fair brown hair.
she smiled like nothing ive ever seen.
she held one of my fingers so tightly i knew she was all i needed.
my family where there.
proud and not mad.
it hurt so much.
but it was all worth it.
she was so beautiful.
i knew i could make it work.
all she had to do was smile.
her dad was no where to be seen.
only because he didnt know.
ten tiny fingers
ten tiny toes
a smile that could knock you out
and bright blue eyes that shined like the sea.
she was a symbol of happiness, love and joy.
it felt so real.
i awoke to find no baby, no bump and no man.
this feels like the hardest thing.
honestly is something we should honer.
broken hearts like promises and dreams.
i either do this or i dont.
i either get happy or i dont.
its been a bad day
another bad day
and all i wana do is look at you and know im okay.
are we the romeo and juliet of our time.
are we the kids who make fucking up look cool.
its all about sweating out excuses that would make your stomach turn.